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Sunday, October 28, 2007

If u really wanna know..

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Sorry dear if u don't know then you can't care.

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1:13 PM

Saturday, October 27, 2007

::286:: CRAZY!

I just submitted the most painful assignment ever! It was long and boring and damn freaking exhausting. The worst thing about it is tat the tutor is kinda racist and I have endless examples of how she marks us down jus before she thinks our english sux!Should have thought abt tat before u got dumped by ur lousy speaking thai Bf rite!

Tsk to her, no matter how hard I work on this assignment I know tat I wont score well...sigh...got some super dissapointing grades from her already and I am kinda speechless abt her... Just dont let me see her damn mountain bike. I swear I will burn it to ash.

Anyway one more submission to go and END OF SEM 1~ woo hoo! I dont really feel I learn anything though..I just remember tat I spend alot of nights working till morning...seriously tats abt it...=( oh well I am jus glad tat I AM GOIng homeEeEEe and before tat I AM GOING ShoPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPING.....GOLD COAST HERE I COME!

I lock myself out for the first time yesterday..darn it shall blog abt it more when I feel like it....

The new song on my blog! I LOVE IT LAR! Mo Li Hong is fantastic I tell u (refer to MTV chinese for tat) anyway cheers ppl and watch out cos the Martian is coming!

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2:17 PM

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

::285:: cheated

Ok I admit that I cheated on the previous few posts and just did a "michelle" and simply posted songs tat were stuck in my head. Guess I should update a little on the happening tat is going on ard here...

lets see...

Ermm..

NOTHING!

I cannot believe how boring it is here!Sigh I got like 3 assignments due in the next three weeks and I dont seem to be working on it at all...tSK..COme on MArvin..itz another X weeks odd to the sunny Island.. U can do it...

There are some sluts who is like pissing me off with her attitude and I ain't going let her succeed. You wanna fail than fail..I am not going to help ur parents save money..

Till more to come when the inspiration strike..

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10:44 PM

Monday, October 15, 2007

Gosh!

I CANNOT SEEM TO GET THIs SONG OUTTA MY HEAD! GREAT SONG!!!!! DANCE babe!

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1:30 AM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

蔡依林-愛無赦

AH LIAN OF THE WORLD UNITE!!! time to take out your light sticks man...EEEKS!

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7:47 PM

Saturday, October 06, 2007

::282:: cos I need you to look into mine..

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old

The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x4]

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
'Cause they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time

Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x8]

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you

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9:48 PM

Thursday, October 04, 2007

::281:: Dishearted

I reckon that the world is never designed to be fair and we cannot at all time demand for equal returns to what we have input.Like a filtration process, ideas and actions tends to spill over and generally, what is resulted in the end will be very much less of the efforts that is instilled at the start.

I dont demand that I always get my equal share of return in watever I do for the ppl I care about but I just distaste that I always end up feeling miserable about myself.I do believe that I would always try to make myself as available as possible to listen to problems from my friends and I do really try to put in my 2 cents worth; be it useful or not.

I am not claiming that I am the perfect friend that is always there to listen and to act on something but I really try hard to.I am not saying that it is a task. I appreciate that my frens trust me enough to share and I understand that when we are really down we really need someone to just voice our views to and perphaps jus listen. Hoping that we will feel better after it but after listening to so many different stories,but that leads me to this

Who do I really look forward to when I need someone to listen?

I know that maybe I am too direct at times but my core purpose is always to try and help.It just kinda sad that I get misunderstood by the ppl that I always stand up for.Maybe I cannot expect them to really know my intentions but to be question about my morale direction is just too much to take.

It hurts more because I truly care abt these ppl and to be doubt by someone you care about is really perphaps the worst feeling ever.I tried to understand that its might be my fault in forcing ppl and invading into thier privacy but I did tried to explain why did I do that in the first place.

I apologised and I really wanted to move on from it but asking me why I did not apologies personally was really just my last straw. I know that you might feel your correct and I do not agree that your not. It's just that have anyone really tried to understand what I am really talking abt? doubting my character over all the things that I have done from a positive point of view is really just very hurting.

I am tired or repeating my story.

I am tired of trying to explain

I am very very dissapointed in this whole issue and it does not really make sense to me that trying to help can cause me so much hurt in return.

Izzit fair then when I ask about an issue, you feel that isnt a problem, I get shout at for trying to think that is a problem for you? There after, you call me and tell me abt the exact same problem you denied to exist is affecting you and your unhappy?
Wat do you want from me really? To be there when your problems arise and to bug off when the weather is fine? I am the one that is supposed to be taking advantage of you right?

I dont request that you all can stand by me when I need you and I really dont demand anything esle. If you feel that I have been taking advantage of you all this time then believe what your heart tells you. If you all think that I force you to do things in return for me then so be it. Seriously if after all these years that we spend together and you have doubt that my character might be what you think is it to be then seriously so be it.

I am who you want to see me to be. I dont really care anymore.It just sux when it always me being the person who is labeled and forces things to happen.

If making me realised that I am wrong really matters, ok I am wrong and I promise I will never do that again.

Maybe I should just leave you all alone. I am hurt that I am even being questioned this way.

stubborn ain't I? So I remind you of your fren again right? Maybe I am like that, you wouldnt really know now would you.Afterall we have only just met for wat? 6 years?

Deep inside I am just the same crazy stubborn and attittude problem person that I create myself to be.I am not throwing my temper like you think I am but I am letting you know how you make me feel about myself.

I just feel really hurt.doubt me all you want. If ANYONE needs me to say sorry personally to and prove your point I am willing to write a letter.

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11:21 AM