Tuesday, August 28, 2007
::278:: 20 good reasons
I think after posting so many photos it would be time to really write something a little deeper into my transaction to the land of little rain.The start was no doubt bitter but I reckon that with the addition of friends I would most likely turn the corner to something more favourable. I guess I needed time to start to get more attached to the new enviroment and to well start enjoying myself in this new land. Don't get me wrong as I do love the weather here and my fantastic housemate and the new sights of visits is absolute fabulous. I do believe that I am independant enought to stay on my own and 4 mths should be nothing compare to others who fails to have the luxury to travel home for christmas.I am fine but just pretty much as usual less than perfect.
I would like to think that through parting and absence as michelle noted, would create an opportunity to rate and value your dear friend's importance to you. It's only through long term estrange encounters and of course dead that you get a chance to tell your friends or family how much they really mean to you. It would be a little unusual to just write a nice letter to your friend out of the blue right? Now why is that so?
Why do we perceive that it queer or weird to tell your friends or family how much they mean to you until they are gone? Is that normal? If so who created this mental attribute in the society? Why can't it be normal to write endless letters to your family and friends everyday telling them how important your attention and presence is to them?I am too guilty for conviction too but I guess I am more interested in who created this influence in the first place.After endless emails on how important it is to tell your love one before they get into accidents and stuff like tat, how many of us actually respond to that email for a period longer than 2 weeks?
Home sick was really my initate thought for not being as comfortable as I should,could and would be.Deeper into thoughts I guess it was not really the case. I still do see my friends and family online and I do still get to send my sincere regards them and thus I would have to eliminate the easy answer.
Naturally I had to talk to my main source of communication which my dear housemate agreed that it was this hallowness in us. There were too much expectation and when they are not met it create a sense of bitter realisation. There is nothing that makes me to really look forward toward which results in a lost of direction.We feel that when we are here we have lost all the friends,relationships & indeed just everthing that we have build up in the last twenty odd years.Starting from point one again is really just tiring.Let's face it, the assignments and school are really just pure obstacles that you have to get pass in order to be certified at the end of thy journey. I need a great pick me up.
I do realised that I am turning/acting into someone that I do not want to appear to be.I hate being that too but there are just really things that I kinda look forward to to pick me up. I know I am not being fair and perhaps selfish to a certain extent of bitchness and complaints but most of the time it really more of a passing thought. So Michy if I do irritate you for not writting back and calling, I am sorry yeah.I hate to be this way too.I can ensure you that when I am this sane I will force myself not to do that. Just ignore me whenever tat happens like how I ignore most of your PMS days. Thanks.
I expect too much maybe because I am afraid of losing out/completely losing on whatever that I have create when I am back there.Its not really me is it? I feel I lost that flare and arrogance somewhere back in the years and I can't find it ever since. I feel Sick abt some of the thoughts I have sometimes and I think that it's kind of pathetic to a certain degree. It just eeks me out totally sometime/most of the time.
Yes I care but I shouldnt be the only one to right?
If your wish is as such than it shall be granted.Let's be responsible of what we really ask for and well do.
Pardon the ranting, I just need to get it out somehow. This is not directed to anyone so please stop the un-needed assumptions and clarifications. If there is indeed someone this is directed to it would be me.
I miss me. Really.
Oh well, on a lighter note. New song for the blog.
Please also visit Deb's online shop for hot stuff as I think she is hot so yeah, shop for wat the hot ppl shops and you will be hot.I think tat's how it goes anyway.
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They say love hurts
I wrote that book
I climbed that wall I had one look
But you just came around
To say hello
The streets were filled
With guilty hearts
And here was I right from the start
And I lost everything
When I lost you
So tell me baby why-y-y-y
Should I let you go
Give me 20 good reasons
I need to know, yeah
And at that point
There was no pain
There was no sky
There was no rain
For all there was was you
And your sweet face
But life is life
And things will change
Like scenes upon an actor's stage
Tomorrow comes today
For all we know
So tell me baby why-y-y-y
Should I let you go
Give me 20 good reasons
I need to know, yeah
Give me 20 good reasons
Give me 20 good reasons
Give me 20 good reasons
To let you go
So tell me baby why-y-y-y
Should I let you go
Give me 20 good reasons
I need to know, yeah
Tell me baby why-y-y-y
Should I let you go, yeah
Give me 20 good reasons
I need to know, yeah
Give me 20 good reasons
Give me 20 good reasons
Give me 20 good reasons
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7:48 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007
::276:: uno monto
Yeah! I survive my first month here in aussie! I havent even eaten alot of instant noodle yet! *Proud of self* yeah so I have been pretty much spending lotsa hard earn cash on things around me that well they call it the start up cost so I really hope I can control myself from like overspending in this very unrealistically expensive place..
The nights have been really cold but I guess I am more or less used to it by now..I have gotten used to walking alot with very heavy grocery as well...no where is unreachable by foot in Ipswich...
Ermm the sem weeks really moves fast here so before I know it I am kinda rushing for assigment already..darn it..no time for sight seeing and stuff..but seriously after the return of my hsemate everything has been like 200 times better..I am visiting alot of nice places with pictures attached below..
Today is national day as well! I super miss it lar...I miss running around with the coms set and well acting busy and stuff..hahaa..I kinda miss singapore now tat I am here...
Ekka tmr! pictures will be up! =)
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10:08 PM
